Disgust

So , you lil kiddies think you so tough acting all cool and ... oh god, fuck you lil miss daisy!
How old are you ? Four? I guess we were right, you lil dicks do not have respect,not only towards us but to others too. Seriously ,git ya heads outta this shit land which tells you " Oh my god! That boy is so hot he is so mine! Oh my god I wanna go out like those cool kids at night !" Fuck you lot! When I was fourteen I stayed at home , watching DVD's or goin' to the movies with friends/family , during the day . I don't kiss boys, I don't even take a liking to them that much. I don't git all obsessed with 'em , I don't give boys head, I don't go out and sneak out in the middle of the night just to git some pleasure (lovebites) , I don't go blogging about how I went out at night like 3 am or 2 am , I don't go ranting about the older ones for I fuckin pissed my pants even just by their presence passing by me .

Yes, I know , the era of teens/youth has changed in time but what I would do to be fourteen again just to enjoy being fourteen. Why the fucken rush in jumping straight to givin' head or bitching about the elder ones ? Live as it be . Be fourteen , act fourteen. You girls are such pea brains . Matches the size of you ladies . I don't think you lil dicks even deserve to be called ladies . GROW up .

We don't hate you, no . We just don't want other outsiders thinkin' you lil shits can outwit us by your blogs via sms or myspace . Just cse you're friends with most of our friends , fuck off , have this brick wall against your lil foreheads against it and think " I have boundaries to not cross the line" . We don't want trouble . We don't like the fact that later on some chick from other school comes complainin' to us sayin' " budak form 2 skola kau memang brani sial blablabla/gedik/slut" . Cause as for now , you lil shitheads got that rep. up . Congratulations! You are labeled as those. How you like that now ?

We're just tryna shape you up, and boy, do you my NS (Nadiah Salwan) have the balls and courage to do those and still deny to it and speak for one entire form 2 . I'll drink to that! Have fun facing all the seniors in school , lovelies . I wish you luck . So fucken disrespectful to all 15 years of age and above . You think you're old ? Fuck you, look at what we've all been through, do NOT compare our experiences to yours , yours is not even the begining,honey.

xxpeacebitches!

I'm begining to wonder why I came

Situation I'm goin' through and went through . Sigh , emotional breakdown . Has something to do with this song -How to save a life by The Fray . The one's with the curved handwritting and the bolded and the colored words are what actually happened to me :

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night.

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you.

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came.

I don't know why I even try to make this work,even though you've been so rude to me, calling me stupid which I don't enjoy being called that especially by you , and when you said " You are damn annoying,babe" . You really got me there . How could I've ever loved a human being like that . I don't know how but I still do . That's how much you mean to me . And despite how you don't call/text me anymore, I really don't mind but at least find some time for me? What? You're busy with your friends? Go ahead, I know for you boys , dicks first ,hey? But then why do you need me? Let me go then? Clearly you don't have time for me . But I don't want you to keep me hangin' like some shit dangling on some cat's ass . Sigh . I love you , despite your temper spitting fireballs at me .I just beg you for the old you. I want the old Hun. My Hanky poopoo , my Baby Boy. :' ( Please . I pray to God you will come back to me asap.

xxpeace